a day less

so its 1:37 am 5th april......i just woke up and btw i went to sleep on 11:20pm 3rd April.......so i missed one whole day(4th april), now i would never know what would have happened to me on 4th april 2008 :(

till the day i die, i would have lived ONE DAY LESS. this sounds like a spooky story but i really slept for more than 24 hours....arrgh

 i know this sucks. one more thing i got a girl from the girl i wrote about earlier. she accused me of being selfish!! maybe she didn't realized it was always her in our relationship. i was just a side-kick and i hated it(i love being the center of appreciation). anyways she is history now and i won't get into any relationships......neve.

I gotta make a brand new start and believe me this is gonna be the best thing to have ever happened to me.  I now know what i have to do in my life. i can't let it be messed up....i got just one life to live...aie!

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3rd March 2008

Love happens only once, n i'm a bit unfortunate in this case. I think i'll not get the love that I want, atleast not in this lifetime. But one thing is for sure – I'll always love her... i'll love her till I die and even after that.

I can and most prolly I will spend the rest of my life. I know that would hurt a lot, but that pain would remind me of her.

I'm not crazy or anything. I'm just a simple guy stuck in a complicated world. People say i've changed but they donot realize that i'm still the same and thats its them who have changed. All I want is someone I can trust. Someone I can spend my life with. Someone who loves me.....someone I love. Someone who would stand by my side no matter what happen. Someone who will love me for who i'm and not for what i'm not. I donot want to be alone anymore. Its hurts a lot.

Don't I deserve some happiness too. Why is it that its always me who have to make sacrifices. I've sacrificed a lot and I donot have anything left with myself.....not even my soul. I dont want to the graveyard all alone and no-one weeping for me. I want people to miss me when i'm gone.

Why am I a stanger to myself, I know whats happening to me and what i'm doing is wrong but even then I keep on doing that. I'm not a fool but then why do I act so foolish? I know i'm not good enough and that i've committed so many mistakes